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my school friend and her ❤️

april 2020

Always being in a very protective environment, never having to look for things I've decided to take a chance and come out of the comfort zone. Trust me. It's definitely worth it. 

So in September 2019, I've applied for a sponsored one month fellowship course by the Indian association of dermatologists, with a very positive attitude that I won't be anyway getting through the selection. The results were to be out by Jan 1st 2020. That human nature of greed never fails to cease. Meanwhile I did have multiple conversations with my husband about how I wish I'd be able to attend it and how beneficial it would be for my career. I love my husband more as he wishes things with almost same or more excitement for me. He is always supportive no matter how difficult it would be for him. 

Jan 1st ,2nd,3rd passed by, with no sign of any result I completely forgot about it until my husband asked me about it again. We had a conversation again and to my surprise the next morning the first email I receive is that I've been selected for it. Oh my. I was very happy.very very happy. 

I was scared too. I was 4 months pregnant with nausea day & night. I dint know if I could manage, I dint know if my family would even allow me to go to Kolkata to attend it. 

Like always blessed with a very supportive family they all agreed with few instructions ofcourse 🙂

Kolkata was a very good surprise to me. I really liked the people, the weather and most importantly my mentor.That entire month all I did was to follow everything he said, taught blindly. He was like that godfather image to me. He was more like a friend with whom you can talk anything for hours. 1 month just vanished like that. 

The very few times I felt lonely (mostly after waking up in the early mornings) I don't know how but I would get a call from my father. Fatherly sense may be. 

Every evening I would get calls from my mother, father, father in law, mother in law, aunt and ofcourse my husband. I had thoughts of recording an audio and telling them that I was fine and forward it to this entire heart lot. Half of my study time would go with calls 😃

First time till date I was alone for my birthday, but I actually wasn't. My baby was with me all through.

I was never scared. Had trouble with the food but we managed. I felt we are far far brave than whom we think we are. I was made fun being compared to vidya balan of kahaani movie. I enjoyed that too. 

Noone believed that I was pregnant. I had only mentioned it to my mentor before joining so others dint know. It was during one of our conversations the others heard and were surprised. I was poured with multiple questions of how I was managing,and how brave I was, and many how's and why's. I was secretly enjoying all that. Made me feel stronger. 

My mentor"Dr.Subrata malaker" sir would surprise me everyday with his caring heart. He is like a book of goodness, knowledge, selflessness & oppurtunities. He took me to a temple one early morning by the Ganges which is one of the best experiences I had. We ( he,his son Surit & me) would have long conversations about dermoscopy and later politics. Well I've never heard or learnt so much of Indian politics before 😃. I met few wonderful people there who would go an extra mile to cook some good food for me once a while. I met my school friend like after ages. I could get why she wanted to settle back in kolkata.

All together I've grown into a stronger, better person there. 

Every night before sleeping I would talk all the nonsense in the world with the little one and ofcourse my husband ❤️. My prayers were for a baby girl and to not see a lizard in the room I was staying 😃

Lots of love 💕